Sr. High camp... it never fails me...

God met us yet again... He never fails me...

I will admit I was a bit concerned that I would be disappointed because of how great last year was, and I kept thinking to myself, how can we top that? I now realize how stupid that was, I don't know He's only Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, you know the one who came to earth to bleed and die for our sins, but nope he can't make an appearance for a second time at church camp... I was wrong. The whole week was amazing and I had so much fun but Thursday night I must say was a high point. To see my best friends fall flat on their faces in total and complete worship astounded me. Not to mention that God sneakily talked me into giving my testimony, and it went alot better than I thought. I healed in areas of my life that I didn't know needed healing. I came to this camp thinking that I was finally okay and that I had it all together, but God used that time to show me the weak spots, the hurts, the uglies. And then He kissed me and set me free...

Things back home have been rough becuase I just want to be back at YCL SO BAD but I'm doing good. I'm am so totally excited about IYC I can hardly contain myself. Me and some of the girls from my church that went to camp have it all planned out that the next time a fun song is played at church, we are going to go to the front and dance and sing our happy little hearts out like at camp becasue we are sick of putting a cap of pride on how we worship God. It's like we're feeling risky when we clap or -gasp- SMILE. and so next fun song that is played... look out Big Lake Church of God!

Thank you-

My cousin Teresa for holding my hand during my testimony, I needed that. (And everything else to!)

Mandi for making me smile amidst my tears and being the coolest tree-hugger in the world

Kirsten for always being there with something to say to encourage me, you are so much more than you think you are

Steve-o for being a real cool guy

Andrea for always making me smile even if it is because you have fallen in a hole of some sort

Bryan Kratzer for being the best director that we could ask for, and just a great leader in general

My Big Lake girls- I love you all SO SO SO much!

Josh for seeing me at my worst and loving me anyway

Everyone else that I'm forgetting cause I just woke up.. so sorry, you have meant alot to me!

This has nothing to do with anything but...

I miss Bri and Brandon and here is why:

Green grass...

Chocolate milk...

candy cigarettes...

Whale talk, my language...

Yeta!...

Karen, that's the weirdest name ever!...

poison, poisson...

I love you guys so much... you mean the world to me and it doesn't matter what happens... I love you guys!

Been awhile

Not a whole lot going on. On wednesday I participated in the day of silence. It was interesting. What it is if you haven't heard of it, is a silent protest against the harrasment and predjudice against gay/lesbian students. We all wore t-shirts and carried card and didn't talk the entire day. The cards just explained why we were doing it, and if someone talked to us or tried to ask us why we could just show them the card. It was pretty challenging to not talk for an entire day, especially when people are constantly saying ridiculous things about the whole thing, and you really just want to hit them but you just gotta smile and bear it. the cards said:

DAY OF SILENCE

Please understandmy reasons for not speaking today. I am particapating in the Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harrassment, predjudice, and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today.

What are you going to do to end the silence?

People were saying I was a hypocrite for doing it since I am a christian, and that I shouldn't support the, and I quote "queer club" and you know what? I'm pretty sure that Jesus loves gay people to, and we are called to be christ-like and that's what I'm doing. I'm also pretty sure that he wouldn't like "christians" slamming people into lockers and threatening their lives because they have a different sexual preference.

The next day a bunch of people got together and decided "Hey, if you're straight, wear white tomorrow!" If you are so insecure that you have to wear a white t-shirt just to make sure that everyone knows your straight, that is pretty pathetic.

So there is my rant of the day.

I get to be a CIT this summer! YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!

love you all!